tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-86783303522726573972024-03-13T06:06:03.873-07:00Picătura chinezeascăDificil de descifrat? Contact me!Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.comBlogger51125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-87472173470284578042013-07-10T12:45:00.002-07:002013-07-10T12:46:40.076-07:00Paradis pierdut in culori...Culoare de vis..culoare eterna, dezmierdata de un chip fin, pe care se cristalizeaza si reflecta suspinul unui inger care plange..Un inger care plange in culori de toamna. Toamna timpurie apare brusc, fulgerator in ochii chipului de portelan, intinzandu-si candoarea catre stejarii inalti si decojiti..imprastiindu-se printre crengi, departe, in culoarea infinita a cerului la fel de tomnatic, cu un colorit la fel de simplu, visiniu..<br />
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Ingerul viseaza..viseaza un panou pe care se intind mii de alte chipuri imposibil de descifrat..un panou incarcat de culori si scantei, durere, sau fericire...fericirea pe care a uitat-o el, sau nu a mai putut sa o simta, caci nu o recunoaste..i se pare ca picatura de visiniu coborata din cer se dizolva intr-un rosu aprins, necunoscut..atat de cald si strain de el..isi apropie chipul de desen si priveste mai aproape cum rosul se transforma intr-o flama care ii arde trupul, il incalzeste si il ameteste..pana ajunge in betia unor visuri tablou..visul in vis care il oboseste mai tare decat atunci cand s-a intins gandindu-se ca nu are voie sa adoarma..Ingerul prabusit din cer a cazut in pacatul absolut..de a visa..de a simti cutremuratoarele contractii ale emotiei parafrenice..o emotie desertata in vis care l-a adus aici..intr-un taram liber, rosu..<br />
Rosul aprins al pulsatiilor inimii, in care daca s-ar adanci i s-ar macina sufletul lipsit de inima, dar care ii da impresia ca inca face parte din acel loc, locul in care a fost odata, dar nu a putut niciodata sa se afle decat in vis..<br />
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Cum a ajuns sa fie inger, cum a ajuns sa viseze si sa se transforme intr-un suflet bun, acceptat de divinitate, este o intrebare lipsita de sens, sau raspuns..Emotia care il cutremura se intensifica si il aduce intr-un loc paradisiac in care mai stau incerte inca alte chipuri asemanatoare lui, reci, pierdute..pierdute intr-un colorit tomnatic de care nu se pot dezlipi..Ingerului ii veni ideea de a cauta in interiorul lui acel rosu indisolubil pe care il considera pieitor...si il gaseste acolo, in centru, arzand mai tare ca niciodata..Acolo o vede pe ea, aceea pe care si-ar fi dorit mereu sa o cunoasca, in acel loc din care a plecat fara ca macar sa o vada, pentru ca era orbit, orbit de o pedeapsa pe care a acceptat-o supus destinului inca de cand a primit dreptul de a convietui cu multi altii la fel, adica cei care aveau acel lucru care ii omoara pe toti, inima. Acum o putea vedea pe ea, stand acolo, in rosul profan desprinzandu-se ca o flama din parul ei lung, neted..carliontat..cum nu vazuse nicaieri in paradisul din care a pasit mii de kilometri distanta printr-un simplu vis..Dar nu orice vis..ci un vis al culorilor a carui intrare le era interzisa ingerilor..</div>
Ingerul a ales insa sa-l guste si sa mearga mai departe..Iar acum, dupa un ceas de cautare in culori, nu a avansat niciun centimetru, caci ea nu e acolo..e numai in visul lui catre acea poarta pe care nu va mai putea trece, caci de acolo a venit, fara sa mai cunoasca emotia culorilor spre care va tanji spre eternitate..<br />
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ascetice, straine una de alta, mergand cu capul plecat spre acel</span></i></div>
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aspira totul in el. Filon de ura si cimitir de sentimente, din care nu mai poti
iesi.</span></i></div>
Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-89342535141494822362013-04-14T12:35:00.002-07:002013-04-14T13:24:35.090-07:00Nu mai suntem ce am fost<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0pdVPHxDZ7SX6W-jIm3yKaDbA347BCa3ARPDDXJncyKRA1ADocuYmQkM5CEL_9x6KfYhH1jASuoJ7Iy6kjtmairnekos8HdPuo5eaN2qSlipUiEsifUTBWtkaPLXhG3C6Gsk_lS24AJM/s1600/4.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0pdVPHxDZ7SX6W-jIm3yKaDbA347BCa3ARPDDXJncyKRA1ADocuYmQkM5CEL_9x6KfYhH1jASuoJ7Iy6kjtmairnekos8HdPuo5eaN2qSlipUiEsifUTBWtkaPLXhG3C6Gsk_lS24AJM/s320/4.jpg" width="313" /></a><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">A trecut mult timp, atat de mult timp incat nu imi mai amintesc de unde au pornit crengile care se intind acum si se dezmortesc, unde e trunchiul care le imbata de viata si de curaj sa mearga mai departe..spre cer. Nu imi mai amintesc cum eram atunci cand priveam nucul din gradina si mi se parea un arbore imens, in care imi era frica sa ma urc ca toti ceilalti din fata blocului.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Astazi, a ramas un trunchi injumatatit, ale carui crengi abia s-au regenerat, dupa ce a venit armata de muncitori sa il taie cu o vara in <span style="font-size: small;">urma. Cand eram copil, ma simteam ca si nucul secat de putere dupa atatia ani in care nu a putut sa se opuna fortelor care il escaladau, care ii rupeau crengile si frunzele, care il dadeau cu var, care il scuturau in fiecare toamna...intotdeauna a fost tacut si nu s-a opus..Asa eram si eu, desi abordam tehnici de ripostare la pedepsele parintilor, nu ma puteam opune legilor naturii de acasa..nici macar acum nu pot. De fapt, privarea de dreptul de a ma opune si a riposta a degenerat in obligatia de a ma supune, de a asculta si de a face asa cum trebuie, nu asa cum mi-as dori. Am stat intr-o zi cu fruntea lipita de geam uitandu-ma in gol, in timp ce afara ploua, iar ce</span>rul se intunecase atat de tare incat cu toate ca era dimineata aveai impresia ca se insera..nucul se afisa tacut din nou chiar in fata mea, clatinandu-se, respirand parca atat de linistit. Era batran, crengile se aplecasera tare de greutate, trunchiul batotorit si radacinile uscate abia facand fata greutatii..stiam ca nu avea sa mai fie acolo pentru multa vreme. Cu totii au probleme fata de universul care ii inconjoara. De regula vecinii au probleme cu nenorocitii aia mici cu maini si picioare care intra in gradina si rup flori sau scutura nucul, oamenii bolnavi cu cei care se joaca in fata blocului cu mingea, obositii cu cei de deasupra care canta la pian sau asculta muzica, altii cu ei insisi...Oricum, in niciun fel nu e sanatos.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">A trecut prea mult timp. Nu imi amintesc de ce m-am gandit sa scriu despre nucul care nici macar nu mai arata a nuc si pe care nici nu il mai pot vedea atat de bine de la fereastra, pentru ca unii s-au decis sa il taie..De ce? De ce unii sunt mai prosti si altii mai viteji numai pentru</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">ca au mai multa autoritate asupra unui lucru? De ce oamenii slabi si timizi nu pot sa se afirme, iar cei inzestrati cu patos si egoism ii conduc pe toti chiar daca gresesc? De ce se face abuz de absurditate si irelevanta daca uneori lucrurile sunt mai simple decat ne sunt infatisate? De ce e greu sa ii dai unui cersetor o moneda de 10 bani, pentru ca te gandesti ca isi cumpara o tigara strangand de la 7-8 oameni?...Te-ai gandit ca omul ala nu are niciun motiv sa fie uman, sa traiasca la fel ca toti ceilalti care se bucura la masa cu tot cu tigara si cu tot cu alcoolul care le pica bine de fiecare data? Nici eu nu mi-as cumpara mancare, cel mai probabil...atata timp cat nu m-as putea bucura de ceea ce primesc. M-as bucura sa primesc o masa in loc de un ban, m-as bucura sa ma ajute cineva sa merg la scoala si sa pot fi ca toti ceilalti, nu sa imi irosesc voluntar zeci de ore din viata fumand cate 3-4-5-1000 de tigari pe zi, in functie de cat de buna a fost ziua respectiva la cersit. Poate ca si nucul meu ar fi dorit ca cei din jurul lui sa il priveasca in primul rand ca pe un nuc, nu ca pe o sursa de nuci sau ca un loc potrivit de ascunzis la vreun joc..sau ca pe o adunatura de frunze din care poti sa rupi cate vrei ca sa faci mancare cu apa si pamant cum facem toti pe la o varsta...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Ce suntem noi, ca oameni, fiecare pentru fiecare? Sursa de ajutor, sursa de placere, motiv de cearta, de sprijin? Da...asta suntem..si desi fara sa ne dam seama, cersim la fiecare colt sa fim vazuti pentru altceva, nu pentru ce putem oferi, pentru ca de oferit dam zilnic motive de prefacatorie, de false impresii, de eforturi uneori nemeritate. Cu toate astea, ne-am gandit vreodata oare de ce oferim si oare ce putem oferi fara a ne gandi la vreo strategie de daruire? Pentru ca suntem oameni, pentru ca avem maini, picioare, cap, minte si suflet oferim iubire, repulsie, prietenie, dar pentru ca iubim, uram si suntem prietenosi nu suntem oameni..devenim oameni numai atunci cand cei din jurul nostru vor constientiza ca nu suntem masinarii de sentimente sau statusuri asteptate, ci oameni ca ei, care desi sunt timizi, au o parere, care desi sunt autoritari si rai, au un suflet care poate plange de singuratate, care desi sunt cum sunt..ne fac pe toti sa devenim masinarii..Nu mai suntem ce am fost..nu mai pot sa imi amintesc cum am fost...</span></div>
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgpgfCBvzRscAP1yiRDk2FTS2gaRs3PLhdPydz5CJoY-gKP_TGxxwXMr3LxRPDclwzxTRJNnN3oEk5Ag1dzP72Y2oxsKdUCUJE9KnzKZU8Y5Hyy-DlZFoiAGs7AWpglNrRQuTk_aqereiY/s1600/dark_winter_by_stilllheartlife-d4o56d7.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="174" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgpgfCBvzRscAP1yiRDk2FTS2gaRs3PLhdPydz5CJoY-gKP_TGxxwXMr3LxRPDclwzxTRJNnN3oEk5Ag1dzP72Y2oxsKdUCUJE9KnzKZU8Y5Hyy-DlZFoiAGs7AWpglNrRQuTk_aqereiY/s320/dark_winter_by_stilllheartlife-d4o56d7.jpg" width="320" /></a>Exces de lacrimi, sirene triste..lipsa de tarm si <span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;">cer asudat, plin de fum, gata sa
explodeze. Clipe de cosmar, noduri in par…vene accentuandu-se, ochii pe care ii
strang de durere… Imagine apasatoare. Culmea unor munti si departarea unei
pajisti batatorite de ploi..campii intise si liniste..niciun cantec de pasare,
niciun strigat de cal, inecandu-se in frig..e atat de frig. Am orbit. In negrul
meu disting trei fire aurii, de pe cer…unul se stinge inspre pamant, celalalt
se ineaca, incercand sa scape in Raiurile bantuite,..de sus, iar celalalt ma
cuprinde, si ma prabusesc..Raman acolo..mi-ar placea sa mai pot privi in jurul
meu..dar nu mai vad nimic..mi-ar placea sa aud picaturile de ploaie apasandu-se
usor pe pielea mea care se strange..dar nu e nicio ploaie. E un ger continuu,
care m-a sustras din simturi, si din anotimp…e o noapte de iarna inumana,
interminabila, o eclipsa de patimi, de agonie si fum..un convoi de sperante ascetice,
straine una de alta, mergand cu capul plecat spre acel intuneric care aspira
totul in el…filon de ura si cimitir de sentimente, din care nu mai poti
iesi..nu mai primesti nicio sansa..si pleci mai departe catre Marea Poarta..o
poarta cenusie, inghetata si simpla, dupa care ai spune ca se afla un iad si
mai geros. Poarta se deschide inainte sa intind mana spre ea..iar in spatele ei
e un tablou cu mine stand la un geam, cu ochii inchisi, in timp ce ningea…acum
observ…ochii inchisi se zbateau sa ramana vesnic abatuti de puterea de a nu
vedea nimic, si de a simti mangaierea de afara..de unde venea..nu stiu nici
acum..dar genele se imbibau in lacrimile neistovite si imposibil de
guvernat..la fiecare fulger, o lumina. La fiecare zgomot, tremur..la fiecare
clipa de liniste..noi tangentiale friguri..</span></div>
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLc5lcgyc1y3liDie5EIbXYc9wGZwEPOsSJf1x_Eu7p7oo49j3fADjw8qnxXfAVOebTKwgWpyNwz0qhJMe5TPFqZTDDxMdoo1eF2_Y4TVaYdjr5iEHAvp7ctMzJPViHup1pc6X3dt7R8s/s1600/sad-girls-control-the-world-22494336-1024-768.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLc5lcgyc1y3liDie5EIbXYc9wGZwEPOsSJf1x_Eu7p7oo49j3fADjw8qnxXfAVOebTKwgWpyNwz0qhJMe5TPFqZTDDxMdoo1eF2_Y4TVaYdjr5iEHAvp7ctMzJPViHup1pc6X3dt7R8s/s320/sad-girls-control-the-world-22494336-1024-768.jpg" width="320" /></a>Vreau inapoi in lumea mea..care e prea departe..o caut
noaptea cu ochi disperati printre stelele care se vad..si care nu se vad, dar
nu mai e acolo, nu mai e de atat de mult timp acolo...a plecat cu trenul care
m-a scapat pe mine din apocalipsa ei. De ce s-a dus..? Lumea mea, care ma salva
mereu de solzii din aer, de ciuma din suflet si de lupii din vise, lumea din
care plecam mereu rece, dar fericita...lumea din care curgeau rauri diafane, si
nu rauri de sange...cara ma lasa insetata..caci nu am de unde sa beau..lumea in
care mancarea e un supliment la aerul pe care mi-l cream singura amintindu-mi
din cand in cand de el..lumea mea a plecat..iar cea in care ma aflu ma
incolteste..ma impinge, ma atrage si ma arunca din nou prin prapastiile ei..nu
am un spatiu al meu si atunci il ocup pe al altuia care nu ma vrea in lumea
lui. Unde sa plec, daca nu am locul meu? In lumea altuia..dar de ce..nu in
lumea mea? Pentru ca..pe a mea am distrus-o, de atat de mult timp...si probabil
ca acum voi ramane cu vertiginoasele sperante ca se vor deschide si alte porti,
sau voi ramane aici, in intuneric, sperand spre un orizontal si inselator
infinit ca se va face lumina si se vor trage draperiile de unde va aparea acel
zambet..zambetul celui care candva m-a ridicat si m-a primit in casa lui. Ce am
facut? L-am distrus si pe el, la fel cum am distrus toate locurile prin care am
trecut..sunt insasi o forta..sau o bacterie, care distruge totul in jurul ei si
nu mai lasa nimic inafara de un crud si insuportabil gust amar..eu sunt
amara..cum m-as putea amesteca atunci cu un gust dulce, sau acrisor..lumea din
care am plecat era o lume amara, si buna...caci toate celelalte nu existau si
nici nu erau predestinate a se naste.</div>
Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-56405958396011315872012-12-13T10:49:00.000-08:002012-12-13T10:49:11.160-08:00Doua stele<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixtSXH3ergyhjb1awbsDeaj4qx-VfPgCNSY0YyDsiUeYhPjXiay08IExMEf4JjDglxgoJSUtTxusk5TSBaXDM4R_Kq-KiifaAZ_DGoKdiNqNaS000xsqJ4vJ0NEfp-ICdl8k8zLvXE94g/s1600/371261.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixtSXH3ergyhjb1awbsDeaj4qx-VfPgCNSY0YyDsiUeYhPjXiay08IExMEf4JjDglxgoJSUtTxusk5TSBaXDM4R_Kq-KiifaAZ_DGoKdiNqNaS000xsqJ4vJ0NEfp-ICdl8k8zLvXE94g/s1600/371261.jpg" /></a>Astazi...sta pe o banca la miezul noptii uitandu-se in gol spre cer, catre ploaia de stele care pare ca se apropie tot mai mult de fruntea lui, accidentandu-l. Nu mai e ce parea a fi, sau cel putin, nu e ceea ce si-ar fi dorit sa para..de atatea zile sta pe aceeasi banca si se uita in sus, parca asteptand...are un carnetel in mana pe care mai scrie din cand in cand, fara ca macar sa isi aplece capul spre acesta. Oricum, scrisul lui e perfect..literele lui sunt perfecte de acolo de unde provin, de acolo de unde sufletul freamata si plange, dezamagit de noaptea din care nu se mai poate strecura spre lumina. Aude din departare pasi apropiindu-se lent de el...rupe paginile din carnet si le mototoleste, aruncandu-le cat de departe poate. In umbra se distinge forma unui barbat, cam de varsta lui. Ajung la o distanta poate prea mica si se uita furios unul in ochii celuilalt. Cel care a venit zambeste diabolic, iar cel care il priveste, il vede printre colbul prezent in lacrimile care ii dau de gol rana..o rana neinchisa, de prea mult timp..<br />
El a iubit-o. Si ea l-a iubit pentru prima oara, el i-a dat intaia sansa sa fie fericita, iar ea a primit-o, necunoscatoare si lipsita de teama necunoasterii..Insa..el a lasat-o sa fie poate..prea fericita. El i-a suflat avantul in aripi ca sa zboare mai sus, spre libertate..el a indemnat-o catre cele mai scumpe parfumuri, el i-a insusit increderea ca e unica..si asta l-a impins intr-o ceata si mai adanca, pana s-a prabusit intr-o prapastie..si..inca si acum se mai prabuseste, in gol, aducandu-si aminte de refuzul ei...Caci cel care se afla acum in fata lui i-a devorat complet sufletul, lasandu-l sa bantuie o lume halucinanta, nemaigasindu-si linistea..El i-a luat ceea ce ii oferea siguranta unei dimineti luminoase..<br />
El a aparut in fiecare dintre ele ca sa o stinga si sa o prefaca in scrum, fumand din ce in ce mai lacom din tigara lui, ajunsa la jumatatea chistocului..cel mai simplu, el i-a furat-o..si nu e doar atat, caci tot el a pierdut-o mai apoi, ea intorcandu-se la el..si plecand din nou..si iar intorcandu-se...iar el a spus sa-i dea uitare, mintindu-se cu o alta ea, cu alte noi aparitii publice si minciuni ..de unde..si minciuna fantomaticului de pe banca: credea ca l-a invins, ca ea e a lui si el a plecat definitiv...insa el...i-a luat-o de pe banca din ziua in care sta aici, privind in sus...i-a luat-o de pe banca pe ea, impreuna ca tot ce-i mai ramanea lui..o simpla si insuportabila viata, ramasa acolo inghetata de gand, de singuratate, de necunoscut..si nu i-a fost teama de necunoastere, ci a infruntat-o..confundandu-se cu ea dupa ce s-a desprins de viata fizica..Si a ramas acolo, bantuind aceeasi banca, pe care o va insufleti mereu...e banca vietii lui, caci sfarsitul e un nou inceput, inceputul in care o va iubi pentru totdeauna, la fel ca ploaia de stele care se desfasoara acum pe fruntea lui..si printre gene..doar 2 stele luptatoare, una pentru cealalta.Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-84739550962809039822012-06-17T14:47:00.002-07:002012-06-17T14:47:52.934-07:00Mai departe..<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Nu am mai scris de mult timp, am uitat sa scriu, orbita ca toti increzatorii bolnavi de-o fericire lucida si mincinoasa, ca atunci cand pui un pariu cu entuziasmul si increderea in convingerea ta..ca la final sa se darame totul si sa ai o dezamagire mai mare decat orice alta pierdere spontana..absentez..mai scriu putin..si totusi, ce rezolvi daca nu dormi? Se zice ca insomniile ingrasa..iti faci procese de constiinta referitoare la tine..te complexezi..pentru ce? Pentru ce e bun sa te autodistrugi daca oricum nimeni nu observa decat defectele..eforturile sunt ultimele pe care le vor aprecia..pleci pe un drum dirijat de un optimism teatral care iti indica directia gresita si ajungi intr-o intersectie ciudata..intersectia dintre drumul tau si drumurile celor din jurul tau..hm..acum ce faci? Iti dai seama ca totul nu se compune numai din tine si atat, ca indiferent de cat de mult te minti singur te intalnesti cu prezente care sa-ti rastoarne pozitivismul. Te izolezi..la ce e bun? Cui crezi ca-i pasa?..iti afisezi un zambet discret in spatele caruia se insira numai frustrari si neajunsuri..nimic nu te multumeste, dar nici nu tu ii multumesti niciodata pe ceilalti..te intrebi ce sa faci cu tine si nu gasesti niciun raspuns..de ce..? Pentru ca nu esti destul de singur ca sa recunosti ca te intereseaza drumurile lor..celor care te evita si te urasc aparent subtil..practic..atat de vulgar.</div>
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Iti ocupi timpul cu regrete..cu trecuturi si obstacole dezaxate..te pierzi in latura unei axiome a sentimentelor..te intrebi oare daca au existat vreodata sau doar te-au mintit ca te-au cuprins..si totusi..niciodata nu primesti un raspuns..nu stii ce se intampla cu tine si cu cei din jur..iti cauti un rost si nu-l gasesti decat in tine insuti, daca ai o mica demnitate fata de sine..si daca nu o ai..ramane sa redevi acel neobservabil deprimat de dintotdeauna..cu ce scop? cu niciunul..a fi intr-o stare irecuperabila e ca o reconciliere cu adevaratul tau <i>sine</i>..niciodata n-ai fost altfel..decat asa cum te simti acum..ca si un melc care nu vede care pas il zdrobeste inainte sa simta ca i se zdruncina casa si organele..e dezgustator, stiu..dar e o comparatie buna in relatie cu momentul in care simti brusc ca esti lovit de nimeni altcineva decat de propriile greseli..si..ce daca iti pare rau, nu mai are nicio insemnatate pentru nimeni..in cea mai adanca infrangere a ta..cu siguranta exista ceva care nu depinde de cine a infrans..adica..ceva care nu depinde de reactiunea faptelor tale..ci de actiunile celor care te ranesc..sau cine stie..celor care te mint cu afectiune, prietenie, interes s.a.m.d. Totul pare o interesanta linie paradisiaca..o linie interesanta..care se transforma intr-o inselaciune a mintii halucinand... si-ti da impresia ca himerele din jurul tau se misca in concordanta cu aspiratiile tale..cazi liber in propriile tale ascensiuni catre ceva mai bun..ajungi in acelasi abis din care ai pornit..dar ce-i asa de dificil de exprimat? E doar o singuratate, un camp magnetic pe care l-ai renegat idolatrizand gravitatia sentimentului..suna romantic si prostesc..caci indiferent de cat de fericit te face, tot singur ajungi..totul pare perfect si definitiv..pana apare momentul in care te reintersectezi cu adevaratul <i>sine</i>..i-ai da picioare si pumni sa dispara dar nu te lasa in pace..asa ca..n-ai altceva de facut decat sa-l accepti si sa te resemnezi..suferi..eh, tragedie..ai mai suferit, nu? nu pare real, pare un cosmar..dar iti mai tii respiratia o data si iti dai seama ca totusi ai nevoie de aer deci..nu visezi..e propria ta minciuna, visul continuu de fericiri si perfectiune in care inoata singuraticul inger nepasator..de ce i-ar pasa si lui? Te lasa sa cunosti mai departe..</div>Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-63422760420112088002012-03-01T12:33:00.002-08:002012-03-01T12:34:55.830-08:00Incercand sa inteleg..Intuneric...instrainare de propria casa si de propria viata, ura fara de incercari si lenea preludiului lor..Parafrazez pe cineva care mai demult a spus ca preludiul nu infatiseaza deznodamantul..dar il lumineaza..si totusi cateodata atat de mult il intuneca, daca si el e negru..<br />
Negru de dimineata, negru dens noaptea, negru in fata ochilor si toropeala continua..Oboseala morbida inauntru, dincolo de geamuri si departe, mult mai departe de cerul spre care ma uit des, incercand sa inteleg...<br />
Ce e intunericul..care e remediul lui..si de ce persista? Demersul simplu al unei iluzii intunecate e doar optiunea de a nu starui asupra viselor..iar solutia suprimarii lor e suprimarea dezolarii. In locul ei sunt atatea lucruri frumoase..si totusi, in lipsa lor aceeasi boala ma cuprinde, o aversiune neostoita, inexpugnabila, rea...Factorii mai puternici decat iubirea sunt cei de aici, de unde scriu si de unde as vrea sa plec..departe, mult mai departe de cerul spre care ma uit des, incercand sa inteleg...<br />
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Imi spun ca de maine am sa zambesc..si imi respect promisiunea pana sa ma intorc aici, unde imi amintesc ca traiesc intr-un loc amorf. Timpul nu trece, corectitudine, concizie, respect, incredere, ingaduinta...termeni concreti cand sunt in preajma fericirii si concepte abstracte aici..de unde iar ma uit spre nicaieri, incercand sa inteleg..<br />
De ce singurul loc in care dorm trebuie sa fie acela in care chiar si somnul e o obligatie..dar o cheie catre locul spre care privesc mereu, cand vreau sa-i fiu mai aproape...si totusi, sunt prea departe de a-l atinge in timpul aparent lipsit de margini, inexistent, inert si malefic..si distruge ultima clipire de dinainte de a-mi dori sa nu mai fixez tavanul in timpul noptii, prefacand-o intr-un cosmar prelung...care acum e un obicei al spatiului meu autodistrugator.Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-1098729323457323292012-01-27T12:24:00.000-08:002012-01-28T06:22:28.108-08:00Cosmar<div style="text-align: justify;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table>Cand simti ca te autodistrugi varandu-te intr-o pestera intunecata si inghesuita.... Cand stai ticsit, iti e frig si lacrimile iti ingheata pleoapele, cand doar tu esti de vina ca esti un om al pesterii, cand te blochezi si nu mai poti da piatra la o parte sa iesi, cand totul se va termina pentru tine in curand..caci daca nu mori de durere, o sa ingheti de ciuda neputintei in fata destinului..</div><div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">Cand la un moment dat adormi sub patura de ganduri privind printr-o vitrina de vise naive si te trezesti tresarind cu pleoapele blocate..cand iti dai seama ca te-ai trezit in acelasi loc, cu acelasi sentiment de vina si la fel de neputincios..cand ai prefera sa mai traiesti o singura zi ca sa iti revezi viata de dinainte, atunci cand palatul de amintiri prefigura o speranta infinita, un vis implinit si un suflet detasat de fizic..cand lacrimile iti impovarau obrajii abundent si fierbinte de atata fericire, cand totul pentru tine se rezuma la zambetul celui pe care il iubeai, cel pe care acum nu il mai poti atinge si cel care te-a aruncat si te-a uitat in pestera de griji...<i>atunci, </i>care e un timp al <i>paradisului pierdut</i>.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">Cand ai impresia ca esti invadat de culpabilitate si desertaciune, cand deasupra capului vezi o negura blestemata care purcede din acelasi intuneric demonic iar pamantul de sub picioare te face sa cazi in gol spre inceputurile tale..si renasti sub forma imprecisa, neobservabila, damnabila... Cand te condamni singur la inchisoare pe viata intr-o celula de lipsa de comunicare si vointa, cand sangele se scurge complet spre glezne si muschii cedeaza..si nu te mai ridici niciodata din patul in care zaci de atata timp pentru fericirea pierduta. Pentru ca nu e atat de usor sa iti amintesti si sa zambesti si pentru ca cel mai usor tratament pare sa fie remediul aparent inaccesibil, in care te refugiezi temporar, si pentru ca apoi te imbolnavesti si il abandonezi..ca sa te intorci in aceeasi dezordine din care ai pornit...treci in nefiinta.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">Cand traiesti intr-un mediu murdar, cand nu te mai preocupi de curatenia din tine si de langa tine, cand afinitatea pentru delicatete s-a transpus intr-o afinitate catre un dezgust inabordabil, cand scapi din ochi planul de idei si ramai dezvelit de toate scuturile..atunci, cand pestera ferecata ti-a vorbit pentru prima oara, atunci ai inteles ca intr-adevar nu mai ai scapare..Inghesuit, tremurand de vinovatie si de frig, iti frangi pieptul cu ambele maini si astepti sa te gaseasca cineva, cu toate ca..e doar un cosmar peren pe care il ai din banca de la scoala, din patul de acasa, de pe strada..de pe oriunde, si de care nu mai scapi..pentru ca te va absorbi intr-o nebuna de nebuloasa haotica a trecutului nimicit de viitor...un melodic cosmar..si neistovite note de rani si stigmate..cum sa-l invingi cand esti propriul lui degustator de otrava?</div>Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-24870304690800846442012-01-18T11:01:00.000-08:002012-01-18T11:03:57.986-08:00Minte nebuna si singura<div style="text-align: justify;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi02Io0qJCkS1_SkJG4HfnPX5oGp1dlA2DVXRmLkY9CZ5IkXj4Mv9D6TBh8tQHPt_iTfalFDctfsSDgEsF5sD6_ewY_DTlUnsHYcxpEdUh7zS8DglKnVGV-uotEXPaxssB1XoPyshclJB4/s1600/tribal_tattoo_design.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi02Io0qJCkS1_SkJG4HfnPX5oGp1dlA2DVXRmLkY9CZ5IkXj4Mv9D6TBh8tQHPt_iTfalFDctfsSDgEsF5sD6_ewY_DTlUnsHYcxpEdUh7zS8DglKnVGV-uotEXPaxssB1XoPyshclJB4/s1600/tribal_tattoo_design.jpg" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">Avem o minte dirijata de un algoritm straniu si excentric; nemarginite ecouri ale trecutului si zbuciumul prezentului anticipat, trait, uitat, refulat, reamintit. Un inceput si un sfarsit, o zi si o noapte, o adiere si o strafulgerare, clipe trecatoare, nori mai rapizi si mai zgomotosi, clipe de grindina sau momente de asonanta, prea mult timp pierdut sau prea multa liniste. Tumult de experienta, echivoc de constiinta si sentiment, o eterna contemplatie si o insolita, temporara, luciditate. Vise prea indepartate de atmosfera si realitate prea necrutatoare. </div><div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">Nu vrem sa credem si totusi ne aplecam vertiginos spre consecintele faptelor noastre, sau ale celorlalti. Nu ne abtinem de la viciuri si totusi pretindem a fi sanatosi. Nu iubim si totusi ii uram pe cei care se tin de mana pe strada. Un subconstient in convulsii care culmineaza in moarte clinica, un experiment esuat de a ne mentine puternici pentru totdeauna, un infailibil esec si o imprecatie a sortii. O indestulare continua si o impresurare de temeri, supozitii, dar lipsa de ambitie.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">Sentimente tulburatoare, morbide, care ne ineaca mintea hipnotizata, ii dau aceleiasi minti dezumanizate mirajul perfect catre a se stinge mai perfect decat afectele aparent lipsite de granite, de garduri, de paznici, de ingeri..dar atat de des asediate de demonii <i>raiului de iluzii</i> traversat de un rau de lacrimi. Suferinta apasa tamplele si curge prin vena timpului, departe, orbeste, hranindu-se cu oxigenul plamanilor nostri si culcandu-se cu ordinea nativa a organismului.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">O saturare care debuteaza cu incarcerarea viziunii reale, continua cu buimacirea spiritului si se incheie cu un ciclu de iluzii intangibile. Atunci cand atingem cu varful degetelor fulgii de pe marginea pervazului, atunci cand sarutam ceea ce iubim si iubim ceea ce imbratisam cu inima, atunci cand suntem pregatiti sa ne decapitam principiile si sa ne torturam celulele, atunci e momentul sa ne gandim ca simturile ne omoara. O povestire e un basm mai bland, dar un basm e o poezie nebuna, inconstienta, care satureaza mintile unor copii manipulati de feeric. Dramaturgia..o imitatie la fel de iluzorie si manipulativa. O instigare continua la ipohondrie, la mandrie, la orgoliu si speranta exagerata. Un drum drept, intunecat si simplu, catre propriile noastre pacate..si..o cainta pierduta la un popas numit singuratate disperata, caci mereu, sau intr-un final, tot singuri ne trezim.</div>Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-32643926160547301822011-12-22T14:10:00.000-08:002011-12-22T14:18:50.104-08:00Cuvinte..Cand sta singur si vrea sa evadeze, cand cearcanele devin imaginea obisnuita si chipul odihnit un look nou, cand vremea de afara nu mai e pretext de bucurie, ci de indiferenta mai mare. Cand sta la televizor si priveste printr-un film ceea ce si-ar fi dorit sa simta in acest moment. Cand citeste o carte si randurile se deruleaza accelerat, cand termina biblioteci si nu mai poate sa scape de fiarele care-i corup tineretea.<br />
Cand vrea sa vorbeasca dar cuvintele sunt o desertaciune mai mare decat dezamagirea de a nu putea exprima nimic...cand pur si simplu orbeste imaginandu-se in mijlocul unor oameni care il asculta, insa el nu zice nimic, ci scrie pe un caiet care va fi citit de catre oamenii care oricum nu il inteleg. De ce cuvintele nu folosesc la nimic important?<br />
De ce e important sa iti ceri iertare daca oricum celuilalt i se pare prea tarziu? De ce de multe ori ceea ce zicem ramane doar un sunet la o frecventa foarte scazuta? De ce cand iubim adeseori amutim si uitam sa mai scriem, de ce? Pentru ca toate cuvintele sunt instrumente inutile sa te poti exprima inductiv, printr-un monolog incarcat de fraze incrucisate, fara inteles. Ce poti sa intelegi din niste cuvinte care nu sunt decat o momeala spre a intelege mereu ceva gresit, sau..prea putin.<br />
<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-VrlVFG-1ktA/TvOqLFpRX9I/AAAAAAAAAIM/QtSOeBdrMqQ/s1600/hartii.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-VrlVFG-1ktA/TvOqLFpRX9I/AAAAAAAAAIM/QtSOeBdrMqQ/s1600/hartii.jpg" /></a><i>Te iubesc, as vrea sa-ti spun mai mult. Dar nu pot..</i><br />
<i>Imi pare rau, dar nu stiu sa iti explic cat de mult..</i><br />
<i>Ma bucur, dar nu pot sa iti povestesc, pot doar sa iti ofer o parte din bucuria mea.</i><br />
Pot doar...sa explic de ce niciodata nu e concis ceea ce scriu. Niciodata nu poti face un singur compromis, pentru ca unul il va atrage pe altul mai puternic, sfarsind intr-o complicitate nebuna, astfel ca, nu imi pot compromite scrisul, deci, imi compromit cuvintele, dupa care compromit intelegerea celor care citesc..<br />
De ce niciodata nu spunem <i>multumesc</i> fara un zambet? Pentru ca un cuvant e nul fara o semnificatie..De ce lectia de fizica e plictisitoare? Pentru ca nu iti place sa o intelegi, sau sa-i acorzi timp..<br />
De ce scriu? Pentru ca e singura explicatie ca nu am definitii pentru momentele in care se intampla sa vreau sa scriu..si de fiecare data cand vreau sa definesc, scriu in imposibil, in portii, in perfectibil sau in oribil, scriu la calculator sau pe o hartie..dau delete sau fac ghem atatia pomi nevinovati..<br />
Nici butonul de delete, nici pomii si nici eu nu am auzit vreodata de viata in cuvinte..ci cuvinte care ne fac viata. Si totusi..e gresit: cuvintele ne strica viataNunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-46966820606385732372011-12-04T12:34:00.000-08:002011-12-04T13:09:28.672-08:00Catre steleCatre stele, in vecinatatea timpurie a necunoscutului, sau a absolutului, patruns de imperfectul dizolvat de perfect intr-un eter al nemarginirii. Catre stele, de unde cobor lin spre dimineata, inspre stele, de unde tind sa nu ma mai intorc vreodata. Si de-ndata ce inchid ochii, finitul se desface in mii de fire crosetate de setea realitatii, care perturba echilibrul de zi de zi, si imediat ce tresar si ii deschid, efortul este zadarnic, caci intunericul va patrunde prin camera mea, aducand stele atat de aproape, si totusi atat de mult impinse spre nucleul dezorientarii.<br />
E iarna. O singura stea pe cer, de atata timp...Un singur anotimp capabil sa rapeasca visele sau sa le distruga, dar singurul anotimp in care dormi fara sa visezi. Un paradox viabil, credibil, pentru cine intra in nebunia mea.<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhJ6z8b-ZE3wzHlj__RrtKjbUuc_6XXjYawP_Lbh6cCKCOJptNonP6A2RW4VLcIscTePVYxAHNIzoBHwrAswLTa0YnuxFCOqDbEoeqeFCaTOAo0E_-9dMktikvECZuD9xjNu8plTs594uE/s1600/PERSEIDELE+SAU+PLOAIA+DE+STELE.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhJ6z8b-ZE3wzHlj__RrtKjbUuc_6XXjYawP_Lbh6cCKCOJptNonP6A2RW4VLcIscTePVYxAHNIzoBHwrAswLTa0YnuxFCOqDbEoeqeFCaTOAo0E_-9dMktikvECZuD9xjNu8plTs594uE/s320/PERSEIDELE+SAU+PLOAIA+DE+STELE.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>Catre stele plec acum, de unde nu ma mai intorc, caci nu le-am gasit in limpezimea lor de departe, ci le-am absorbit in ceata nesaturata de frig, de ger, de spaima si inchipuri morbide, specifice mie..poate. Sau poate ca-mi lipseste prea mult noaptea in care sa le privesc pe toate, si sa le ating inainte de a pleca spre ele, catre stele, de unde nimeni nu se mai intoarce...mai vine cateodata in vizita, sa recunoasca, sa piarda, sa sufere, sa greseasca, dar niciodata sa se bucure. Catre stele e fericirea mea, dar sunt prea des un musafir neinvitat, masochist, care pleaca in somn spre propriile temeri..din propriul inconstient disparat de restul din mine.<br />
Cu cat mai mult ma tem, cu atat mai usor pierd si ultima stea. Ultima stea pe care inca o pot vedea; de aici de unde stau acum, privesc prin draperii catre cea mai luminoasa si stinghera aparitie pe care o cunosc, inafara de mine. Insolita imaginatie...<br />
De ce n-as concepe ceva eficient, netagaduit si intangibil, in loc sa imi pierd timpul imaginatiei cu failibilul? De ce m'am stabilit la gazdele puternice ale realitatii cand eram doar un musafir? De ce <i>catre stele </i>nu mai exista?<br />
Am pierdut harta in cursa pe care am luat-o dupa ce am pierdut-o pe cea planificata, caci eram prea agitata ca sa-i mai port grija, iar acum..nu se mai fabrica.Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-34135863863134683282011-11-17T13:07:00.000-08:002011-11-17T13:07:59.330-08:00EGO<div style="background-color: blue; color: white; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span></span>Atat de susceptibili pretindem ca suntem, atat de lipsiti de vina si atat de inocenti..Atat de mult ne dorim toate drepturile si atat de putin ne respectam promisiunile. De ce mai e seara, sau de ce nu dormim noaptea, daca tot ce ne dadea un motiv sa ni le dorim ne-a parasit recent? De ce inca speram, daca ne e asezat un imperativ negativ in fata? Cat despre mine, vizualizez zilnic acelasi desen, cu linii arbitrare, ilogice, trasate de dragul esteticii, si eu totusi privesc spre ele imaginandu-mi o pictura valoroasa. De ce sa nu sublimam ceva ce nu avem, daca ne-a ramas ca drept personal, irevocabil? Dar...de ce ravnim mai mult, daca niciodata nu vom castiga prin inertie ceea ce ne dorim?</div><div class="separator" style="background-color: blue; clear: both; color: white; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwPAs5gb8BsFsMj3ps6Ds5U4GNLpjrT3HWmYc73N1erkfiSIo5r-TBkm1mQ7zfq2jgMR3y4neU8NA2WKykgkQ0hBHNkmaEOQ8tK7arcqpyvdurw1K6iwA_oCCErN-AuxqKGybSPoLynDs/s1600/302338_278225785554533_140838495959930_811111_823939061_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="195" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwPAs5gb8BsFsMj3ps6Ds5U4GNLpjrT3HWmYc73N1erkfiSIo5r-TBkm1mQ7zfq2jgMR3y4neU8NA2WKykgkQ0hBHNkmaEOQ8tK7arcqpyvdurw1K6iwA_oCCErN-AuxqKGybSPoLynDs/s320/302338_278225785554533_140838495959930_811111_823939061_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="background-color: blue; color: white; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Raspunsul nu e aici, ci oriunde am incerca sa ne indreptam privirile ca sa ne dam seama ca toti suntem bolnavi, nebuni, ai iluziilor. Ne place sa fim raniti, decat sa ne plictisim intr-o sanatate pasiva.. ne place vrajba si cearta, ca linistea o aveam si o avem peste masura. Si totusi, pretindem ca suntem puternici, capabili sa infruntam..sa depasim, insa in realitate ne scufundam la cele mai profunde gropi abisale, de unde nu mai putem inota pana la suprafata, asa ca ne prabusim spre nucleul din intuneric, spre lava din miezul durerii noastre naive.</div><div style="background-color: blue; color: white; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Si nu obosim sa ne urmarim telurile, si nu le dam un moment de odihna..si nici nu intelegem ca ne-am dispersat demult in atentia obiectului, desi am fost avertizati. Ne injosim pentru un singur obiect, om, animal, lucru, ne injosim pentru ca nu avem simtul masurii. Nu acceptam nimic daca nu respingem ipohondria. Nu ne mai saturam sa ne injunghiem persoanele dragi pe la spate, caci nu ne mai putem preocupa cu starea lor, ci doar cu visele noastre.</div><div style="background-color: blue; color: white; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Suntem egoisti..si asta ne omoara.</div>Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-19236235922540556062011-11-11T12:22:00.000-08:002011-11-11T12:22:55.961-08:00Teatrul din toiul noptii<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwzHxagj3xTlVCX6vdZI3sz0kNPa62wrsHWaCd8y35_-8_g5J77va8DYqGNI25NrMlYS9hV8nBmWYAvJ-7RTSb9fp0nu7RFJogls9l4EHLeNVyW1ClJpR-gt-MeGzpzjbwYlsuxMSPGSw/s1600/pisi.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwzHxagj3xTlVCX6vdZI3sz0kNPa62wrsHWaCd8y35_-8_g5J77va8DYqGNI25NrMlYS9hV8nBmWYAvJ-7RTSb9fp0nu7RFJogls9l4EHLeNVyW1ClJpR-gt-MeGzpzjbwYlsuxMSPGSw/s1600/pisi.jpg" /></a>Nu pot sa dorm. Ceva straniu se misca in jurul meu si se-ncalceste de cate o geana, de cate o lacrima sau cuvant nerostit. Vina, singuratate si senzatie de liniste absoluta- indeletnicirea mea preferata despre care nu vreau sa vorbesc, nu aici. Perceptia propriei fiinte si negarea ei- descrierea din launtrul careia nu se poate evada. O inchisoare de bolti si-o ghilotina de nori, o multime de ingeri care aplauda, un alai de picaturi de ploaie, o toamna aburita...<br />
O toamna care incepe absurd, continuand patologic.<br />
O toamna diferita si lacoma, hranindu-se cu mine.<br />
O toamna secundara, caci pe prima o privesc acum pe geam. Anotimpul imposibil de scos din toxinele lui si asezat in legea naturii. Ceva-ul cu care traiesc simbiotic, in armonie, naiv si asa mai departe.<br />
Inchisoarea de bolti debuteaza cu furt de sentimente. Nevrozism excesiv, teama, insomnii... continuum temporal de lipsa de discernamant. Intuneric, foaie goala, ochii inchisi, finalul unei epoci depresive, inceputul unei alteia...ma ridic inopinat si dau patura la o parte ca sa scriu, si pana sa ajung la caiet ideile se imprastie ca niste particule care se tot resping...asa ajung la altele mai rabdatoare, dar nu la fel de clare...noaptea le spulbera tot continutul.<br />
Straniu se tot plimba in jurul meu..oare ce e? Viscol crunt, sperante infantile, zambet pe buzele tremurand a duplicitate...imaginea perfecta a idolului din mine care desfigureaza un teatru prozaic, din care nu cred ca o sa mai ies niciodata, caci patologic, e lumea mea.Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-32602305817546684552011-10-10T12:38:00.000-07:002011-10-10T12:39:37.572-07:00Dezolare morbida<div class="MsoNormal">Se complacea un cantec de seara cu o dorinta de evadare, se contopeau intr-un vis undeva aproape de singura stea indepartata la care priveam...si parca ea insesi canta lunatica, insetata de companie...</div><div class="MsoNormal">Canta spre mine dar prea tarziu sa-i raspund. M-am risipit in mii de franturi de vina purtate in jos spre-un infern al dezolarii, de unde se ridicau grav intorcandu-se cu fruntea aplecata, evitand sa-mi raspunda intrebarii<span lang="EN-US">: De ce m-au parasit? Mii de franturi dezinvolte iubitoare ale anarhiei interioare, pleaca, calatoresc departe de mine, amintindu-si ca tot eu le dau viata, cu mahnirile, grijile si prostiile mele…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-US">Stau…fredonand o melodie pe care prevad c-am s-o mai aud intr-o vreme indepartata..cand steaua va disparea si isi va face aparitia in contopirea din visul meu fantezist..</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-US">O stea deasupra unei mari line, intunecate, in temelia careia se odihneste o coroana imesa de lumina..corola de motive de meditatie spre alt vis..</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhbkGlhwkhyphenhyphenxCQq4B6V4uR5aLmDwpsrWvU91WAmVfu2jjzXLZ1jHqi1LG0PgtUE3uL6WKRDA1d-UlAZIY0WiVh9s3oC-afhWmoPw7nxN1wNaD4zcAn-Q2MEjt9xhkcntmkA4QDdlGOvPX4/s1600/sea-at-night-wallpaper.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhbkGlhwkhyphenhyphenxCQq4B6V4uR5aLmDwpsrWvU91WAmVfu2jjzXLZ1jHqi1LG0PgtUE3uL6WKRDA1d-UlAZIY0WiVh9s3oC-afhWmoPw7nxN1wNaD4zcAn-Q2MEjt9xhkcntmkA4QDdlGOvPX4/s320/sea-at-night-wallpaper.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-US">Sa ridici un val peste genunchi asezandu-l ca pe-o carte, citind launtricele sale teme de importanta ale miilor de melancolici..recitind si impaturind o pagina pe care scrie: stau in sezut pe nisipul rece, umed, contepland asupra marii…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-US">Titlul zice in schimb altceva: cum sa-ti amintesti ca insensibilitatea nu-i vadit-complet umana, si nu-i de pe taramul umanitatii..e de-acolo, din mucegaiul ce patrunde corola fantastica tintind spre ochii tai ploiosi..starnind furtuni..si inundatii..si uragane..la fel de justificate ca tsunamiurile provocate de ce stiu eu ce complot inuman. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-US">Deci, in ochii nostri vegheaza un potential pacat sau demon conspirator impotriva esentelor plenare ale sufletului..si deci, noi suntem niste insensibili in genere, caci am uitat sa mai visam..ne plac povestile de dinaintea furtunii..sau inundatiilor..sau uraganelor..atat de failibile pentru noi. Si totusi, atat de raspandite prin toate colturile lumii.</span></div>Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-68434365943111698342011-10-02T11:20:00.000-07:002011-10-02T11:20:54.977-07:00ObsesieObsesia cu care vantul rupe frunzele de pe crengi cu atata fervoare, maltratandu-le la pamant unde isi dau ultimele ceasuri, uscandu-se si transformandu-se in colb, ca in fiecare toamna cand scriu ca sa uit de obsesia de a-mi face ordine in ganduri. Traiesc intr-un labirint de vise, amintiri, dorinte, dezamagiri. La un capat se afla trecutul si la celalalt o infundatura. Repetitiva, altruista obsesie de a ma intoarce in trecut am descoperit-o a fi volitional negativa, cand renunt la cei din jur si imi citesc propriile scrisori/povestioare de prin caietele abandonate in cel mai inferior raft din biblioteca...adorm...peste cateva ore ma trezesc cu ochii umeziti de ...lumina uitata aprinsa deasupra universului meu docil de sentimente spulberate sau care inca lupta cu mine. Sting lumina uitand sa adorm, deschid geamul..<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhALcfxibLQpcfYkmIZiwHXNbJrs_U4EndfZyuZghk01V1IsDcf_F8U9yk5pxlEy0jl3OhQ8f_34vekEn2SxbWjUg9NxbOxKrND2RTWooUFAMEYAA9eIORx23Q3kIPeC5mjdAymbffruUk/s1600/obsession.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhALcfxibLQpcfYkmIZiwHXNbJrs_U4EndfZyuZghk01V1IsDcf_F8U9yk5pxlEy0jl3OhQ8f_34vekEn2SxbWjUg9NxbOxKrND2RTWooUFAMEYAA9eIORx23Q3kIPeC5mjdAymbffruUk/s320/obsession.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>In intuneric vederea mi se linisteste pana la netezire, se cristalizeaza si nauceste imaginatia, desi disting perfect. Obiectele ma privesc din vitrina, cartile stranuta tumultos sarind parca direct in ring inegal, tavanul se tot incolaceste deasupra patului sforaind a hibernare.<br />
Pe strada un stalp de lumina se-agata de un bec obosit si plictisit de molcomeala, tuseste si casca si el in surdina... Clipesc lent sa n-auda norii, sa nu cumva sa orbeasca lucirea tomnatica a stelelor de care imi va fi atat de dor... si-atat de mult n-am sa mai dorm ca sa-mi astup doar ochii intrand in imanenta albului fum ce izbeste cerul de pretutindeni..cand sufletele dorm. Dar stelele-s comori spirituale, ursesc mistuirea cu-n alt univers, incert prin identificare si vizibil prin revelatie. Vreau sa fie o noapte lunga...idila cu misterul sa razbeasca auria aparitie artificiala, rece de dimineata.<br />
Vreau o cana de ceai si-o coala de hartie, caci strazile vor prinde viata si blocurile o continua nedumerire sau uimire asemenea celor din vraja unei nimfe. Apoi, sa mai iau o coala pentru a prelungi penumbra utopica din schita mea atat de similara unei nebuloase (nu-i asa?..mai stai un rand!)<br />
Obsesia de a manipula in spirala cerul sau camera sau restul care n-are legatura cu altcineva decat cu mine, e aceeasi obsesie care ma face sa arunc jumatate de caiet tot rupand din el foi si imbrancindu-le cu piciorul spre usa. Scriu prostii. Nimeni nu intelege. E o obsesie.<br />
Stalpul de lumina iar casca...si se stinge..tocmai mi-am risipit ultima pagina desenandu-l.Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-28228970093740417842011-08-31T12:54:00.000-07:002011-08-31T12:54:15.488-07:00Din nou<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgIG1RjzPVzs5c3XpJsIYWKcuR4ey8xPuGxQa2mFCstbTp0V9OmY_dBVhpSDFltwDTzjJZHko58NuPNoxjM6IDLueM2FJOrIY9Ri_Qd2hLt7YfiaFFsYzuDwnNQqXK35qRDjXk0THEH4w/s1600/128651-hoboken-suicide-attempt-jump-from-6-story-window-june-15-2007.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="241" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgIG1RjzPVzs5c3XpJsIYWKcuR4ey8xPuGxQa2mFCstbTp0V9OmY_dBVhpSDFltwDTzjJZHko58NuPNoxjM6IDLueM2FJOrIY9Ri_Qd2hLt7YfiaFFsYzuDwnNQqXK35qRDjXk0THEH4w/s400/128651-hoboken-suicide-attempt-jump-from-6-story-window-june-15-2007.jpg" width="400" /></a></div>Din nou ploua cu spaima si neintelegere, tuna cu regrete si spulbera visele, amageste orice evadare senina..cutremura cerul cu lacrimi vanjoase, neostoite, care nu vor sa se-ascute de socoteala rea. Vor sa mearga cat mai departe, cand simt din nou ca nu ma mai pot ridica, cand am acelasi picior in piept apasand tot mai puternic, tot mai absurd, fara noima, oprindu-mi suflarea si declansand alte sughituri, alte picaturi de ploaie. Durere fizica, durere reala..depasita de atata vreme de ceva inepuizabil. Semnalul sfarsitului sters pe chipul unui animal vanat cu cruzime de-atatea sageti otravitoare, impactul cu centrul organului vital si urletul de dupa, incununeaza placutul episod de suferinta..sufar din nou scriind cuvinte imbarligate, scot din nou o hartie si o mototolesc inainte sa fi scris pe ea..ma aplec s-o deschid si dispare..iar am impresia ca am uitat ceva, undeva, pe orizonturi straine la ani lumina distanta, iar tremur de frig intre patru pereti uitati in umbra, iar mi se cearta ochii si-si scuipa ca-ntotdeauna fara sens, uratind obrajii, umplandu-i de negru. Amfetamina imi inteteste faclia starii de nimeni absolut, din nou sper ca fug de inec cand imi trece alt val transant, nesovaielnic, peste cap..inghit apa cu duiumul si totusi traiesc, ma lupt cu marea la nesfarsit, ca s-ajung la mal candva, undeva, si sa ma ia din nou un crivat dureros catre larg..Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-64254047772795732452011-08-13T11:28:00.000-07:002011-09-03T12:58:55.368-07:00Perfecti, infiniti, corecti si nu prea<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgB9cmXdRCUqkF1Qb8jXa3tek6nh5WviWXCe5eoD8RExqNfqZIyehWQp75xaHQuA2pZR3xfoaCUabWjR8HCXyrf3d5-zPJc1m9cI-VekIa4DskODkjPkCJ4rEbwhuXFoTRqbhQ5aJ5SJes/s1600/4688937293_f440b28900.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgB9cmXdRCUqkF1Qb8jXa3tek6nh5WviWXCe5eoD8RExqNfqZIyehWQp75xaHQuA2pZR3xfoaCUabWjR8HCXyrf3d5-zPJc1m9cI-VekIa4DskODkjPkCJ4rEbwhuXFoTRqbhQ5aJ5SJes/s400/4688937293_f440b28900.jpg" width="266" /></a></div>Privesc un cer senin..cateva sageti sudeaza orizontul cu o agerime impresionanta..sparge norii de fum imprastiindu-i spre-un eter acoperit de pete de culori vii..se mistuie incet ravnind spre infinitul comun oricum..Doar e infinit..ce sa vezi, incotro s-o apuci..esti tu cu libertatea ta si visezi departe de realitate, departe de razele neastamparate si aproape de monotonia care intervine in orice obisnuinta..Un cer acoperit de stele, de nori sau un cer sticlos imi amintesc ca vremea e schimbatoare..ca ploaia vindeca praful maturat de vant peste tot, pana si in tine, cand sufli greu din cauza a nu stiu ce amintire sau durere prezenta..sau ca o zi caniculara in care apa rece vindeca un organism insetat si-un psihic intunecat de vremea anterioara..Nu-i mai frumos aici? De ce sa plecam atat de departe, de ce sa uitam ca suntem plasati pe harta, cu directie, cu sens, cu scop..cu lucruri mai putin incantatoare si cu multe fericiri, cand avem ocazia sa plecam singuri sau in doi catre un rai?..rai interminabil si plictisitor...<br />
Nici macar nu exista vreun rai undeva, decat in mine, in tine, si in noi..cand dam de Serotonina sau Endorfine din plin...ca apoi sa ne amintim de vivacitatea infernului si sa ne apuce un moment in care nimeni nu ne iubeste iar infinitul s-a micsorat ca nici macar lupa bunicului nu-l mai gaseste pe tavanul de unde visam ca izvoraste...Cu toate astea unii inca ravnesc..<br />
Necesar, omniprezent, adevarat, verosimil, sau niciuna? Indispensabila iluzie pe care o mentionez peste tot..e doar un pretext de manifestare a timpului nefericit..e doar o fantasmagorie, gogomanie..in argoul meu e doar o imputita care te face sa versi lacrimi anapoda si nici macar n-ai cum sa-i dai cateva ca s-o stearga din viata ta.<br />
Voi, care credeti ca timpul a facut un popas ca sa puna niste crengute sa inteteasca jarul de minciuni, voi, care sperati ca cei care sufera din cauza voastra o sa va priveasca de la 2 m sub pamant cu o mana intinsa, voi, astia care inca aveti curajul sa afirmati ca sunteti de rasa umana, sunteti singurii care mai aveti un rai material, delimitat de noi, ceilalti, gloata de cersetori ai dreptatii, care in lancezimea noastra asteptam sa deschideti ochii si sa priviti din unghiul sufletului.<br />
Monismul imi da dureri de cap zilnic..padurea, cu misticismul, "infinitul", linistea, caldura si implinirea pe care le inspira devine un controversat, conservat si consacrat loc al "regasirii infinitului". Plaja, cu atomi, aschii imprastiate de scoici intr-un faras de apa, devine oceanul nemarginii intr-un apus inghetat de..ore de cine? De aceeasi neindestulata iluzie.<br />
In urma cu cateva zile imi vorbea cineva de promiscuitate..convietuirea mizera a unor suflete menite sa guste din imoralitate, savurand slabiciunea celorlalti si profitand de ea cu o foame morbida, inumana, demonica. Promiscuu ar fi sa spun acum ca persoana de langa mine va sfarsi in aceeasi groapa cu resturile mele, ca vom salaslui prin toate capetele lumii incercand sa cunoastem o vesnicie iluzorica..sau ca niciodata n-o sa sfarsim fara sa ne aducem aminte ca ne iubim. "Un fleac", ne-au ciuruit poetii astia imaginatia si visele..ne-am lipit cu totul de tavan si nu ne mai desprindem decat dimineata..si nu ne-am desprinde nici atunci daca ne-ar fi scris sa nu mai deschidem ochii..Sa mori in promiscuitate, n-ai mai avea nevoie de testament ca iti ia satana din prima jugulara, si-o sa arzi in infernul nemarginirii tale, si-o sa zaresti undeva, printre flacari fatale, o ciudatenie tumultoasa care rade isteric, si-o sa-ti dai seama c-ai facut cunostinta cu Iluzia, mama dragostei.<br />
"Natura are oroare de vid", dar nici inclinare spre etern..caci spusa de-un filozof n-ar da deloc bine pentru extremitatile unui romantic. Filozof sa fii si cu siguranta raiul tau e mai aproape, un cuget adus la bun sfarsit dupa o buna perioada de framantare, perfectiunea in fata ochilor tai care dispare si-ti face loc pentru urmatoarea..Pronominalizand "luciferii" astia visatori, asadar oamenii visatori, as spune ca s-a format o lume multifunctionala care sta sa dispara.. cei care zboara se inmultesc cat ai clipi..iar cei care simt pamantul sub picioare in curand o sa-l simta inerent, peste tot, si n-o sa se duca intr-un rai, ci intr-o alta lume unde ar putea sa fie mai bun. Dar de ce ar fi? "Te-ai pus pe cruce da fraier Isuse!"<br />
Cat de "infiniti" suntem cand injuram..cand ranim..cand ucidem cu arme reale sau virtuale..cand mintim..cand iubim in taina numai de placerea nerealizarii unui liant..etc etc..cat de infiniti vom fi in continuare..caci ne-am dezumanizat cu totii..a dracu Eva, saracul Adam..ai dat prea multe nume si acum ai prea multa mizerie de curatat...si-ai ajuns la un infinit propriu..si n-ai sa izbutesti niciodata sa aduci planeta la stadiul initial.<br />
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Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-86858207367162413282011-08-05T14:14:00.000-07:002011-08-05T14:58:44.582-07:00112-donati lacrimi?Nu stiu de ce, sau nu vreau sa stiu de ce in general fac intocmai ce imi propun sa evit..capcane captivante si ineluctabile, unele fatale..altele placute de care nu regret nicio clipa, cum mi s-a intamplat ieri..Ieri cand mi s-a prabusit cerul in cap si m-am trezit singura intr-o lume straina, nestiind incotro sa merg, la ce usa sa bat si cu-i sa-i cer un dram de mila, am dat de-un sentiment. Pana recent ma deprinsesem cu un caracter placid, apatic, indiferent, de nesensibilizat, ma hraneam cu suferinta celor din jur, provocata chiar si de mine, si de fierea care fierbea in mii de cazane pline de ura..nu mi-ar placea sa amestec din nou in ele, mai ales acum cand servesc la o masa primitoare care lasa bacsis.<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjffiiHzZv8ch7mVspqDX6hh7GzK7_wIg3q6s42xX7gAxjzH7iuo33sH5ApF4a_4sd4mjmqjwqI0giW3Ps7a7ggztXr1KGZmQGn2l2ch7iWlQtn2bWtGU_Nv-u7cz4Pu-y-HgANmto024M/s1600/DSC01444.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjffiiHzZv8ch7mVspqDX6hh7GzK7_wIg3q6s42xX7gAxjzH7iuo33sH5ApF4a_4sd4mjmqjwqI0giW3Ps7a7ggztXr1KGZmQGn2l2ch7iWlQtn2bWtGU_Nv-u7cz4Pu-y-HgANmto024M/s320/DSC01444.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>Din nou nu stiu de ce scriu acum, dar stiu ca trebuie sa continui sa transmit ceva aproape imposibil de explicat. Ursuza ca de obicei, rataceam printr-o tesatura de lacrimi inodora, incolora, inexistenta, pe care doar eu o vedeam, reflectand revelativ ca ma sugruma pretutindeni, mereu. Ieri incepusem sa vad mai bine dincolo de lentilele pline se colb interminabil. Sunt aproape de o semi-revolutie interioara. Pentru ce? Pentru ceva ce n-am mai simtit demult. Si nu stiu daca-i in favoarea mea. Cand credeam ca predilectia imi era sa zambesc temporar in aceeasi spontaneitate din rutina zilnica, am cunoscut zambetul permanent pentru o realitate care paradoxal, o iubesc. Uram si realitatea, si visul..vesnic complotand impotriva mea. Si nu mai oboseau nenorocitele de sclave ale mintii sa-mi inabuse luciditatea, asa ca am luat primul zbor catre cer. M-am prabusit chiar ieri, chiar daca tot ieri plecasem. Eram in cadere libera spre ocean si brusc pluteam..destinul imi soptea ironic un noroc mascat de-o iluzie, realitatea ii dadea pumni din toate partile, cand m-am trezit stand pe o mana la birou cu un telefon in cealalta mana, gandind in gol, clipind himeric, imaginativ..absentand..cine sau ce era salvatoarea realitate? Oricat de rau ma prabuseam, mai mult ma inaltam spre constientizarea unui lucru nou si distins in capacitatea mea de a acorda atentie. Ce-i aia sa acorzi atentie? Sau ce era?...<br />
Iubesc o realitate..nu mi-e rusine..recunosc ca-mi place dar ma tem ca ma va obseda din nou tocmai prin eleganta, eminenta, inteligenta, frumusetea si perfectiunea sa..Atat de perfecta pentru mine ca donez lacrimi unui centru al bolnavilor de fericire.Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-29751426894302143632011-07-31T14:03:00.000-07:002011-07-31T14:12:28.014-07:00Alergand prin vine..<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDqj4qrMLL5aiI5deqzKDtrO7ysrNEedqXicX_fWBQ9T2qHbYlchhDVrNzdx7WRQ61yuUH_p3P5lbvirHIRlcM8YISuc73OxXM9vW_MIbwDg5IZUeTObnJDI1KecT0Empy_VXU9qa62Ys/s1600/luna-plina.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="183" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDqj4qrMLL5aiI5deqzKDtrO7ysrNEedqXicX_fWBQ9T2qHbYlchhDVrNzdx7WRQ61yuUH_p3P5lbvirHIRlcM8YISuc73OxXM9vW_MIbwDg5IZUeTObnJDI1KecT0Empy_VXU9qa62Ys/s200/luna-plina.jpg" width="200" /></a></div><span id="goog_1794598050"></span><span id="goog_1794598051"></span>Imi place sa traiesc in surdina unui vis.<br />
Suspin aiurea, fara vreun compromis.<br />
Si de se intampla s-obosesc tipand,<br />
Mi-astup privirea s-adorm lacrimand..<br />
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Din nou pe undeva prin noapte,<br />
Cantand in sine o biata strofa<br />
Ce gandurile le-nvrajbeste cu mii de soapte..<br />
Si tot spera ca-i suferinta amorfa.<br />
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Se duce prin vine departe<br />
Spre-un negru dens, cu mainile curate.<br />
Cu-n pumnal in mana, cu pasi grabiti,<br />
Alearga acum sa-ngroape nori infiniti.<br />
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Nori infiniti de pulbere, desertaciune<br />
Care se dezlantuie peste campii printr-o plecaciune<br />
La fel de desarta ca poezia mea..<br />
Negru pe alb, spusa de-un sentiment izbit de curea.<br />
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Repulsia din negura inghetata nu ma sperie,<br />
Si nici celelalte hiene pandind din feerie..<br />
Strafulgerarea din tomnatica privire,<br />
E doar un ceas tacut mirosind a amintire.<br />
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Si tot priveste nemilosul..<br />
Si tot pandeste nemiloasa..<br />
Dar nu ma sperie nici gelosul..<br />
Nici geloasa..Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-6083471266046924212011-07-26T11:55:00.000-07:002011-07-26T13:00:43.916-07:00Irisi cantand violent un refren...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi19KqNy1c5qg_Pfd2x9f4H4Wnz4mUlNYMdePSiMqYExlHB4jpV9qB_hurKb6B47S_461Gol0TciBhQ4pjqykoZl_D1EbpoOaPjxJLIgQRXJDX-WK0e-u7nN51NpiH90ZYDK_1e63Ab6Hc/s1600/161937_142342242451167_7069147_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi19KqNy1c5qg_Pfd2x9f4H4Wnz4mUlNYMdePSiMqYExlHB4jpV9qB_hurKb6B47S_461Gol0TciBhQ4pjqykoZl_D1EbpoOaPjxJLIgQRXJDX-WK0e-u7nN51NpiH90ZYDK_1e63Ab6Hc/s1600/161937_142342242451167_7069147_n.jpg" /></a>Signaletic te tot incordezi si iti tot incrunti privirea aiurea, spre nicaieri. Nu te vad, actiunile prodigioase ale stelelor mi-au absorbit panoramic privirea si innoptez aici astazi..nu le cer decat o saltea de unde sa le pot privi in continuare. Sunt un neant ca pulberea risipita in vid si imi irosesc minutele intr-o ratacire oarba spre ceata.<br />
Voiam sa incerc sa uit de prezent cand am dat peste sticla nocturna care m-a atacat insensibil, indolent..un cer atat de inchis presarat cu aschii sclipitoare. Imi aminteau atat de puternic de irisii criminali pe care i-am despicat o noapte intreaga in mii de sori, mari, raiuri..pietre ascetice, uniforme, singulare si unice pe planeta. Irisi caprui, irisi diabolici care inca toarna lava aprinsa in interiorul meu. Si nu stiu daca a fost o simpla metempsihoza sau pura iratiune a ratiunii mele..dar ma duceam tot mai aproape desi nu voiam, desi stiam prea bine cat de prostesc e sa surazi din nou unui fior in stomac. Aiureli, obsesii dosnice, si atata impietati pentru un singur sentiment. O nenorocire de fenoment nuptial, de care imi era sila si de care nu ma puteam indeparta. Febrilitate si nebunie, ironie din partea irisilor, nepasare, indiferenta..ma ajuta acum sa ma trezesc din betia de zilele trecute. Poate chiar ma stie si vrea sa ma ajute..poate ca nici macar nu stie..sau poate ca..traiam intr-un somn langa un docil vis muzicant..imi amintesc cum imi canta langa trup o balada trista..si-mi amintesc ca m-am prabusit pe-o bordura cu mainile in par si am scrasnit din dinti zgomotos. Ce-am ajuns? Ce urma sa ajung? Un alt monstru teleghidat, comandat de-o telecomanda fara combustibil..o telecomanda umana, batjocoritoare, caci toate telecomenzile de felul asta iti vor doar seva..care se termina si te-ngroapa adanc. Oricat de nestavilita-mi e dorinta de-ai revedea, mai mult imi doresc sa ma intorc acolo unde i-am vazut irational ca sa-i observ convalescent si sa nu le mai pot da drumul din impletirea vizuala. Asurzesc in lipsa melodiei care mi i-a distins din restul ambientului..si vreau din nou acolo..unde inca puteam sa sper. Nu-mi place locul asta, o perpetua regenerare sentimentala si-o continua barfa despre vesnica materie nestatatoare..locul celalalt era diferit..si valmasagul imens care pulsa a viata si fericire imi dadea un nou impuls sa caut spre ei..spre irisii care imi sugruma acum noptile si pe care probabil nu-i voi mai revedea curand..caleidoscopici, violenti si launtric inchinati unui refren pe care nu-l voi uita niciodata.Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-20626104111480005752011-06-27T12:14:00.000-07:002011-06-27T12:14:42.427-07:00Tu, albastruleSa fie oare un blestem, un cosmar, o nascocire a propriei mele firi? O pierdere acerba, inversunata, stricata si molipsitoare? Sa fie oare motivul pentru care fug, speranta pentru care poposesc sau ideea pentru care mai glumesc din cand in cand? Sa fie...o bacterie prezenta in aer, in apa, in mancare, in voi toti care spuneti ca sunteti cinstiti?<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjS-TyMsMtvWlN99PqOTa_pY-UESUN5CoV_30zyLJnllIzrHWxvmPPAnc0DThCA8Kh60F4rM6A4c8rLOYMZ7o-TlQU2hgtbYo2Kaix34-Q7ZKquZ48sg13ndOgnueawTJ-EdtmipV4hUf0/s1600/mujer+libelula+detaliu.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjS-TyMsMtvWlN99PqOTa_pY-UESUN5CoV_30zyLJnllIzrHWxvmPPAnc0DThCA8Kh60F4rM6A4c8rLOYMZ7o-TlQU2hgtbYo2Kaix34-Q7ZKquZ48sg13ndOgnueawTJ-EdtmipV4hUf0/s1600/mujer+libelula+detaliu.JPG" /></a></div>Continui sa cred ca e doar o imaginatie, o pictura pe un trepied inalt, abandonat intr-o poienita de inspiratie si golit de substanta. Nu mai inteleg nimic din imagine decat acelasi albastru pe care il uitasem. Albastrul meu celest, ironic, dureros..capabil sa imi taie calea de fiecare data cand ma vede pe strada, ca sa imi capteze atentia si sa ma prabusesc intr-un lesin aproape fatal. Albastru celest ca un glont care asteapta oportunitatea de a-mi strapunge pieptul..albastrul care fierbe in ochii mei si se varsa in fluviul vinovatiei. Am uitat de el..albastru marin..albastru senin. Tu, albastrule, te-ai coborat asemenea unei petale si mi te-ai asezat pe umar intovarasindu-te fara aprobare. Tu, nesabuitule, blamabilule, tu, care mi-ai rapit un an din viata ca sa-mi arati ca nechibzuinta e mai puternica decat iubirea. Tu, oratanie, pleaca din calea mea si adu-mi inapoi culoarea rosiatica a firii vindicative. Jurnalul sa ti-l asterni pe patul vulnerabil si sifonat, sa faci ce vrei cu umilinta, disperarea si inocenta mea, sa pleci cat mai departe, sa uiti de mine. Tu, albastrule, da-mi apusul inapoi!<br />
Inca nu am timp de tine, inca nu vreau sa te vad. Condamnabilule! Te-am repudiat de mult, de ce nu imbratisezi si alti orbi, alti increzatori in nimicul asta de iluzie, toti care privesc la cer visand tot felul de stelute undeva acolo departe, alegandu-si una si tremurand de-atatea frisoane la amintirea unei persoane cine stie cat de importante? Tu, albastrule, loveste-i pe cei necunoscatori, desfa-le cureaua de la gat care ii face sa se aprinda de patos. Tu, monstrule, de ce niciodata nu esti acolo unde lumea are nevoie de tine? De ce nu pleci? Sunt bine!Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-87707050051169816792011-06-26T03:47:00.000-07:002011-06-26T03:47:57.933-07:00Prea simplu..<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_d1xUJVX5vQWB2qKb_gLpgJvV0r-rnnkLUayj24yWKMXeARSXzvgP7IR3GqvadH79E1h3NGIha66YIUAWaR_PiV0DUvvjXI5oqfGyaamauF-K_Kh5AzqXv6DHmgSBDa115OBjZtwCszY/s1600/tumblr_lld127pJIu1qax8ubo1_500.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="266" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_d1xUJVX5vQWB2qKb_gLpgJvV0r-rnnkLUayj24yWKMXeARSXzvgP7IR3GqvadH79E1h3NGIha66YIUAWaR_PiV0DUvvjXI5oqfGyaamauF-K_Kh5AzqXv6DHmgSBDa115OBjZtwCszY/s320/tumblr_lld127pJIu1qax8ubo1_500.png" width="320" /></a></div>Vreau sa convertesc iubirea. Vreau sa-si spun ca nu exista, ca-i haina, ca-i jivina, ca-i tot ce-i mai malefic, mai grav, mai hidos, dar nu pot. Vreau sa convertesc iubirea la ateism. Vreau sa cred ca necontenita traire extaziata nu expira, nu se deterioreaza, nu dispare. Vreau sa fie vesnica, si nu oricum, ci dedicata tie. Vreau sa-i soptesc o doina purificatoare, sa-i adun o suvita dupa ureche, sa-si sterg lacrima de dor si sa-mi plimb ici-colo genele pe pielea-i neteda. Vreau s-o implor sa stea aici, caci ea oricum nu face precum cer, ci precum i se spune. <br />
E oarba, si muta, si surda, dar e-atat de vasta, si-atat de calda, si lina, si de vina, pentru tot ce sunt si suntem, pentru tot ce ti-as spune acum, cand sunt inaltata de aripi carmuitoare spre-un Paradis profan. Sa nu te mai am, sa nu mai zbor. Sa nu ma mai recunosti, sa nu mai vad. Sa ma iubesti, sa visez neintrerupt, sa fiu necrutatoare, sa fiu egoista, sa fac mult rau, cu invidie, cu teama, cu insensibilitate, cu dragoste, pentru tine. Sa dezbrac si ultimul cuvant de haina inradacinata, s-o astern pe-un pat de trestii ca sa m-adoarma usor, si-apoi sa-mi apari tu brusc in vis, ca-ntotdeauna, si sa ramai aici, pentru totdeauna.<br />
Parea simetrica prezenta cu lipsa ta...parea suportabila o ora fara sa mai stiu de tine, parea ordinar un minut departe de orice legatura care sa ne racordeze din nou..parea simplu, prea simplu, ca sa fie iubire...Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-78886420131947483322011-06-22T13:38:00.000-07:002011-10-01T13:47:39.986-07:00Picătura chinezeascăUrca scarile incet, gandindu-se ca-i de prisos sa intre in casa. Ajunge pe pres si da sa intre. Ezita. Apasa pe clanta iar sarmana, necrutata de iala, riposteaza tumultos. Uitase de chei. Deschide usa si se uita partial inauntru, pastrandu-si corpul afara si mintea catre niste creaturi ciudate de pe terenul de joaca pe langa care tocmai a trecut. Niste creaturi ciudate numite copii. Da, asta il macina..Rutina zilnica: servici, cafenea, apartament si acelasi buton de repeat, pana in ziua in care va aboli unul cate unul, ajungand la apartamentul eternitatii. Familia lipseste si lanturile canapelei din fata televizorului il spanzura de tavan imaginar, mancarea din frigider s-a stricat, apa a fiert in bidonul uitat pe masa din bucatarie, telefonul nu mai suna caci n-a fost platit..<br />
Apa inca vine calda..si o baie e numai buna sa-si ascunda sudoarea declansata de stresul "burlaciei" desuete..da, decreptitudinea ii furnica pieptul, gatul, tenul, simte cum timpul prin care trece ii fura dreptul la definitivarea unei solii. Care solie? E complet absurd sa crezi ca viata s-a incheiat aici..dar cat de normal e sa ajungi aici? "Singuratea- e acum un cuvant cu alt continut", iar e cel mai solitar neindemanatic, spala geamuri de la 8 dimineata pana la 5 dupa amiaza cand isi ia ghiozdanul si se opreste in barul de langa cofetaria in care n-a mai intrat de cand a fost dat afara de la spalatorie. De fapt, inainte de spalatorie a plecat de la pizzerie si inainte sa plece de la pizzerie a fugit din Constanta de la un centru SPA. De 5 ani tot fuge de ceva. De ce anume?<br />
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh4w6MpQgEQfipVw5V7fSxAnqB8okPIveUl0_trl9ghZMs-ehYBSJppn9mTthuzzzwkyKu9c65osTWHjHL-looy-zVEppdYxrO34T2JUF46hywfvMtzhgyDTK4tgsgFVdmdyYeYChhnFbs/s1600/mana-in-ploaie1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh4w6MpQgEQfipVw5V7fSxAnqB8okPIveUl0_trl9ghZMs-ehYBSJppn9mTthuzzzwkyKu9c65osTWHjHL-looy-zVEppdYxrO34T2JUF46hywfvMtzhgyDTK4tgsgFVdmdyYeYChhnFbs/s1600/mana-in-ploaie1.jpg" /></a>Isi pusese intr-o vreme problema pasivitatii. Un om nestatornic si ciudat ca el nu ar putea sa stea in loc pentru un venit acceptabil sau o femeie frumoasa. E mai interesant sa vezi cum se toarna vinul in sudul tarii si de ce nu se serveste ciorba in farfurii in nord. Si atat de cumplit e sa vezi acelasi lucru zilnic, atat te mai plictiseste si atata greata iti provoaca fetele castrate de aerul sefiei de oras. Ai vrea sa-i poti plezni pe toti sau sa-i scoti intr-o piata publica pentru a pleda libertatea si o lege inexistenta, nepracticata dar scornita in mintea ta. Legea artificialului, care se tot agita si se tot plimba din floare in floare pana ajunge la capatul lumii. Si acolo ce mai face? Se arunca intr-o nebuloasa ca nu cumva sa reia ciclul placid lumesc.<br />
Arivismul ii da pe afara. Apa din cada se raceste si se ridica privind mai intai in oglinda. Pare mai linistit. Ghilotina interioara pare sa-i fi amanat pedeapsa. Uita de ce trasese sforile unei marionete de la teatrul dedicat tragismului. Maine se muta la Brasov, acolo n-a mai fost, dar spera sa nu dureze prea mult noua vizita. Are planuri mari.Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-82864733594675629602011-06-19T12:01:00.000-07:002011-07-26T11:29:20.656-07:00Să nu ne oprim ! (sau mai bine sa nu incepem)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgboGPHsQk2hAljug4W6HNk7-zNHFLYSNWZRqL0wRfMenfR2V7EgBR2iy5nBKs-EBgnsAScGYl05mu9O0Q6cW7K9Sv3jclfFMNWOoKAQmBqVpB2_cKBMpiNjcZCvmjEROSd2kFWG75BHOw/s1600/Freedom_by_seaside_oholic.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgboGPHsQk2hAljug4W6HNk7-zNHFLYSNWZRqL0wRfMenfR2V7EgBR2iy5nBKs-EBgnsAScGYl05mu9O0Q6cW7K9Sv3jclfFMNWOoKAQmBqVpB2_cKBMpiNjcZCvmjEROSd2kFWG75BHOw/s320/Freedom_by_seaside_oholic.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>Cu varful degetelor sa-mi maresti tensiunea, cu vocea sa intemnitezi pentru totdeauna tinutul celor care ne complica saltul... Cu ochii sa-mi incredintezi o clipa de siguranta alba, in bratele tale, in luntrea purtata pe valurile uitarii catre o insula pustie, unde sa fim doar noi, sub o umbrela de vise, pe un sezlong al pasiunii, iubindu-ne tacut..fotografiind marea..<br />
In toiul noptii sa ma prinzi din nou de mana cand incerc sa ma inec in cearsafurile somnifere, sa fugi cu mine pe terasa, sa privim spre stele..steaua noastra sa clipeasca ore-n sir, sa nu ne lase sa mai plecam vreodata, in umbra amintirilor, in nelinistea imbolnavirilor si aprehensiunea caminului...<br />
Sa ramanem aici, sa nu-mi mai dai drumul, sa nu-ti mai vorbesc..sa fie de-ajuns sa te sarut din nou..din nou..sa nu ma mai opresc. Sa ma intinzi pe spate cand vantul se-ndura de prezenta noastra si tace..tace...sa-nchizi ochii si sa privesti catre enigma pe care ti-o poarta sentimentele..sa-ti iei hrana din mladioasele frezii, sa uit ce-i somnul, sa uit sa respir..langa tine..de unde pornesc caile de pretutindeni are necesarului, idealului...sa obtinem tot ce vrem impreuna, sa nu ne mai oprim din acest zenit, proces de manipulare a naturii...<br />
Sa dam uitarii luntrei, si apei, si cerului..si noua..sa ne lasam ghidati de-un val de placere intr-o atingere candida..s-avem aceeasi umbra rosiatica pe sirea spinarii si-acelasi suspin de durere..caci timpul trece, trece..STAI! marea nu vrea sa plece...cerul se-adapa din lacrimile ce-mi salta neindemanatic formand o bolta infinita de culori calde..nisipul tace..tace..si-atat ne dorim...<br />
Sa bem venin, si-atunci sa ne oprim lin, lin...din respirat, si din mancat, si din atins..dar niciodata din iubit !Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8678330352272657397.post-22516864216064881892011-06-17T09:56:00.000-07:002011-06-17T12:02:52.735-07:00EchivocApa se-neaca pe fereastra de unde priveste nedumerit...S-a pierdut demult in emfaza ploii si-a trecut in simbioza substantei vii dintre el si lumea de-afara..Isi doreste mult s-o vada din nou alergand pe trotuarul din fata casei lui sau plimbandu-si catelul, numai ca intotdeauna, sa se opreasca si sa-i zambeasca fara a-i mai spune altceva..<br />
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFG2lqt4W-mas4ugBVishlhp4RcHQXLVmxwZdkEcMkhNBppRZSK1uJl02PMpj9EFbcu7_uNlDxpBKKNm3zaOd6LAZ5bMgFZkgd85hTSphnRnCiQdTKarqU85ps9b1TWHQyFGag_GWzOYQ/s1600/beyond-imagination.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="268" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFG2lqt4W-mas4ugBVishlhp4RcHQXLVmxwZdkEcMkhNBppRZSK1uJl02PMpj9EFbcu7_uNlDxpBKKNm3zaOd6LAZ5bMgFZkgd85hTSphnRnCiQdTKarqU85ps9b1TWHQyFGag_GWzOYQ/s320/beyond-imagination.jpg" width="320" /></a>Uimaceala il duce la agonie si disperare dupa un vis prematur..o inchipurire spontana de care sa se descotoroseasca atunci cand isi va atinge scopul. Printre contopirile picaturilor mitotice de pe geam intrezareste silueta ei incomparabila, in sesizabilul sau mai bine zis indiscretul maieu scurt cu buline si pantalonii scurti pe care ii purta prima data. Apoi, uitand de revelatia silita iese afara strigand dupa ea. Unde e ea? Cerul ii preseaza acum inhibitiv durerea ca sa nu-si mai reporneasca ceasul zilei, pleaca s-o caute. Afisandu-se in niste blugi rupti, la bustul gol, cei care il privesc din blocuri compatimesc inca un pungas..Dar pe el nu il intereseaza. Unde e ea? Fuge, izbucnind in acelasi timp intr-un hohot de plans, sughitand si strigand asemenea copiilor abandonati intr-o tara straina. Se simte el insusi un strain, in timp echivoc, intr-o lume echivoca si fara sens, unde cautarea ei devine declinul starii de depresie care-l macina. Echivoc e sentimentul starnit de disperare. Da ocolul orasului..vede intr-o vitrina un maieu asemanator celui pe care il schitase mai devreme in memorie..ar vrea sa capete viata acoperind casticitatea unei fiinte de neconceput atinse. Tremura sub ploaia care da uitare cerului senin, acaparand intregul orizont, coaguland insetata simbioza latenta a ratacitului cu obscurul labirint catre un obiectiv de negasit. Talpile ii sangereaza de la asfaltul jignit de pietre, cioburi, doze si altele..<br />
Nu mai simte nimic, un sentiment echivoc cu potentialitatea lui care fantasmagoric, are o energie cinetica premergatoare..un fatalism venit de altundeva..din dimensiunea relativa a vointei interioare, caci vrea la ea atat de tare. Si atat de tare inca fuge, neostenind, cu glasul la fel de inviorat ca acum 2 ore cand rupsese gardul casei sale ca sa poata evada in ploaie. Intr-un final ii iese in cale o masina (credeam ca se opreste), dar continua acelasi ritm alert. Prins sub roti isi strange pumnii de durere si ochii de multumire...ar vrea sa-l macine complet, caci murind va ajunge in sfarsit la ea, cea pe care el o cauta de atata vreme. Ea, care nu cu mai mult de un an in urma s-a stins in fata lui dupa o lunga perioada de convalescenta. In timp ce e dus spre spital pe spatele soferului inmarmurit de teama isi vede drumul altfel..deschide ochii cat de mult poate si in sfarsit ea apare.<br />
Destinul inghiontit de propriile nascociri l-a facut sa-i para c-o are din nou..insa el priveste tot pe geam..in aceeasi simbioza dementa care nu se mai satura sa-i injecteze LSD-ul malefic catre echivocul dureros..dar atat de idilic si iluzoriu..Mai e frumos sa visezi?Nunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02782675500905904909noreply@blogger.com0